The impact "they" have
It's been quite a while since I have written something and actually posted it for the "world" to read. I guess my mind was never really at peace nor did I feel centered in a long time. Some times it's funny how a family member, a friend, an acquaintance, a complete stranger or even a kid can have an impact on your life. These people can either have a positive or negative impact on your life... but I always say that it is never the second but the first. Because a lesson is never anything negative but it is something that only built you up and forms you.
In life I made mistakes. Some of them I am not so proud of. Some I did even though I had enough time to think it trough and so on. But I do know that they are mine and I own them.
Getting closure is overrated because I guess there is no such thing. There are always another 'why's' and more 'ifs'. In the past I met some amazing people who I go to, if I feel a little lost... these people never tell me what I want to hear. Instead they tell me what I don't want to hear and what they know I want to do instead.
Surprisingly someone who I never thought of meeting, I met. It might have been faith or not. Maybe it was or os meant to be or not. But sometimes there is just this "something" which you cannot explain. I guess some times people just cross your path for various reasons.
And even though I knew it myself, this stranger made me realize even more that in life you have to accept the fact that you cannot change certain things and people, regardless of how much you care. There is nothing wrong with wishing the best for somebody, but sometimes you have to realize that keeping them close to you is not always the best thing to do for you. There won't be no hard feelings. It's just life. And there is no point in wasting your time or someone else's.
This is a "concept" that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that does not mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
I thought I didn't like romance as much as I thought but I love the feeling of being in love. And everything else that comes with it. And yes, I am someone that is looking for love. Real love. The ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, cannot live without each other love.
And as much as you may think you want something you just know when something is not right. It's never what the mind is thinking but it's always what the heart is feeling.
'If it feels right, do not question it, love with all your heart, do not think too much... but do cherish the feeling and keep it and of course try not to let go! Because maybe you may lost the best thing that ever happened to you without realizing it because you were too busy counting the stars that you missed the moon.'