'LIFE happens while you are busy making plans.'

Scars

Sometimes you have moments where you sell yourself short to one another because you have this weakness of caring too much. You open your heart the moment you start to trust.

But afterwards... you can always have the scars because you tore your heart open.

By tearing your heart open and having scars, will remind you that the past is real. And sometimes you might even ask yourself the question: 'Why do I tear my heart open?'

And surprisingly enough... you never have an answer, because it happens.

You might get disappointed in yourself. And why? Because you let it happen. You gave someone the power to distroy you even when you trusted them not too.

"They" say 'time heals everything!'. And yes, I believe it that saying. Because everybody needs time. Time is just always needed with whatever you do in life. Time is needed to create something beautiful. Time is needed to care for someone. Time is needed when you miss a loved one who has passed away. Time is needed to win someones heart. And so on... Time is just a four letter word but it's meaning is endless!

When you look at your own situation from the outside. It's like standing on the outside like a stranger looking in. Cause eventhough you haven't given everything, you did give something.

Eventhough there is a mess that has been left behind, you can't hate that person. You might miss them. But you will forget and eventually you will let go! Somethings are just gone forever and you just won't give it no more tries only time, because that is the only thing that is needed.

You can get by without that person without having to lie about it. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!

But do be thankfull for what that person brought into your life. Because even when you end up having tears eventually they will dry. The moment the tears dry... all is done and there is nothing to say. You know so much but still there will be nothing to say.

To fall in love may be hard for someone. But falling for betrail is worse! You thought you could build faith and trust and eventually you find out you build it on empty words and promisses.

So the times comes when all is done and there is nothing say.

Honesty is ALWAYS the best policy.

No Rules

For some reason every person wants to set a few rules for them selfs. And ofcourse every single one of those people have their own reason(s). Some think that by making and setting certain rules for yourself you can prevent some things from happening.

There is a saying: "Rules are meant to be broken". But ofcourse, some rules just need to be followed, because you cannot go "around" nor can you "bend" them.

But if something happens it happens. Let me not call them "things", because when it's so beautiful it is not a thing and eventually you either go "around" or "bend" the rules, therfore, there are no rules. No matter how many rules you wanna make. At a certain point none of those rules will matter. No matter how scared it may seem or how scared you may get or how scared you may feel or how how bad you want to protect yourself... some things you cannot control and they just happen.

I think that rules are either made to prevent somethings from happening or they are made because something(s) had happened.

You have people that are so spontaneous, very impulsive and can very seldom think twice about something and can live every moment full of adrenalin. These people can usually be the ones that are so careful and set rules when it comes to their feelings. Even when they know that life continuity gives us roots and changes gives us branches.

Sometimes things happen so spontaneously. And when they had happened, you do not know whether to regret it, even though it is something your heart wants. It is like people sometimes fear what they want the most. But ofcourse you should not give up on something you really want. It is very difficult to sit, wait and think, but it is even worse to regret when you know it is something you secretly want!

Cause there are so many moments you can share with anyone or just someone in particular and you feel like you want that moment to last forever, when you know it is only a moment. And sometimes, well... I dunno if I should call it faith but I will call it that because faith has tricky ways of doing something you probaly thought you'd never expected.

But in life, never regret anything you do. Because in the end it makes you HAPPY and it makes who you are.

Inspiration

In life I personally think that every single one of us needs some inspiration every now and then.

Everybody gets inspired in a different way. The reason for this is because we are all individuals. Some can do the same things the other person does and some can't. When you are good at something that doesn't have to mean that the other person has to be that also and the other way around.

That's why each and every single one of us gets inspired by something different. Some people get inspired by looking at architecture, some people get inspired by seeing someone work so hard and achieving his/her goals, some get inspired by going to seminars and so on.

I was recently browsing the internet and I landed on a youtube video by Nicholas James Vujicic also known as Nick Vujicic. His words did inspire me!

This man was born in Brisbane on 4 December 1982. He is an Australian of Serbian descent who was, with no medical explanation or warning born, without arms and legs. Nick is an evangelist and motivational speaker, he uses his life to help others. Nick struggled throughout his childhood with his handicap, and at seventeen he started his own nonprofit organization, 'Life Without Limbs'. After graduating from college, he began his journey as a speaker of Vujicic in order to motivate others. Currently, he regularly gives presentations on topics such as disability, hope, and finding meaning in life. So far he has spoken to over three million people in over 24 countries on five continents (Africa, Asia, Australia, South America and North America). (source:http://nl.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nick_Vujicic)

Here are a few inspiring words that I would love to share with you. I don't know how you will feel after reading them but I felt great and also very inspired!

'If I fail, I try again, and again, and again...

If you fail... are YOU going to try again?

The human spirit can handle much more than we realize.

It matters HOW you are going to FINISH.

Are YOU going to finish STRONG?

The challenges in our life are there to

STRENGHTEN our CONVICTIONS

They are NOT there to RUN us over.

In LIFE you have a CHOICE:

BITTER or BETTER

Choose BETTER, forget bitter'.

Yiruma!

Josh Groban the High-Light of my Sunday

Heineken Music Hall (02-10-2011)

Very often in films, series or even in real life you hear people talking about the 'High-Light' of there day.

In a very long time or I cannot even remember that I talked or shared the 'High-Light' of my day with anybody. The reason I have not done that is because I do so many fun things in a day. I listen to music and dance on the beat, I hang out with my friends, I stick my head of the window... yeah, if you live 32 stories high and the weather is great, why the h*ll not! I walk up to strangers to talk to them, but most of the times it's because they have a dog I want to play with. I get excited by rubbing my sisters stomach cause I think it's awesome that I am finally becoming an aunt and knowing he/ she is growing inside of her. So aside from all of these things there are many other things that make every day so great for me.

But yesterday? I uhmm... geese it's even so hard to write it down. I just want to write so much at the same time.

Just let me start of from the beginning. A few weeks before my brithday I listened to 'Josh Groban's' music a lot. The reason for that was because I borrowed my brother in-law's iTouch and just openend iTunes and shuffeld the playlist. I LOVE listening to all types of music but most of the times I don't know who the artist of a song is. So at one moment the song 'You raise me up' was playing and I suddenly stopped doing what I was doing. The reason why I did that was because I remembered my dad playing that song sometimes. And I couldn't understand it quite well but I do remember that I like the persons voice who was singing it and also the music.

Whenever I hear certain songs I can't help but thinking about my dad since he passed away.

But that period just before my birthday it was in my daily routine to listen 'Josh Groban's' music. I can remember my sister and brother in-law asking me: Do you really like his music? Do you really like it? Which song do you like etc. And to me all of those questions wern't suspicious until I got a birthday card saying: 'We're giving you a concert ticket to Josh Groban on october 2nd 2011 in A'dam'.

My reaction: (looking at them) are you serious? (looking at my birthday card again and reading it several times) and suddenly my mouth just openend up and I started making all kind of different noises and I did a little dance out of excitement!

So after waiting 5 months, I finally went to his concert. I didn't know what to expect. So I was just constanly thinking what the concert would be like from the moment I woke up, when I was walking outside in the wonderful sunday weather, when I was in the car on my way to Heineken Music Hall in A'dam until I was finally seated.

I was sitting row 12 seat 62. So I had a pretty good few of everything. And the moment the lights were dimming I was very curious what was gonna happen next. And then I heard the orchestra playing and I started to get goose bumps. So from that moment on I really sat on the end of my seat from the beginning to the end of the show. And I think when I finally saw and heard Josh Groban sing in person I almost fell of my seat haha...

I did found it a pitty that I didn't see the stand where I could write down a question and 'Josh Gorban' would answer it. So I really wanted to run to the podium and ask him or actually tell and then ask him: This concert is my 23th birthday present from 5 months ago which I got from my sister and brother in-law. So I was wondering if you would like to sing a belated happy birthday song for me or just give me a belated birthday hug? (I guess I am silly like that).

Aside from my question I wanted to ask him. I enjoyed this artist his voice, the words in the songs, the music

the orchestra made with there instruments and so much more!

But to be honest this concert of this amazing artist is the first one I have been to but it will def. not be my last.

Going to a concert of 'Josh Groban' made me think that he is also very down to earth and simple said "the boy next door". But just like some people he also has an amazing talent he shares with a lot of people without sometimes knowing how much he can touch a person he has never met through his voice, words and music. And that is truly also a gift one can have!

But the high-light of my sunday was:

Hearing Josh Groban sing 'You raise me up' in person and having my sister right next to me!

And the reason why that moment of the whole sunday was my high-light is because I lost my dad in 2007. I never knew that song could touch me so much as it did last night. As I was sitting in the audience everybody suddenly stood up and so did my sister and brother in-law. I wanted to do the same but suddenly tears were rolling down my cheeck and I really started to get emtional and really started to miss my dad again. And even when it happened a few years ago whenever I think back it feels like a week ago. So I actually I will never stop missing him. My sister saw it. And without me saying anything or looking at her she sat down next to me whip my tears and wrapped her arms around me. At that moment she and I were sharing te same feelings without exchanging words.

Life is sometimes very hard and yes, I cry sometimes. And this may sound stupid but I will write it anyway. Yesterday when I was crying and getting emotional so many things went through my head. Sometimes things happen or must happen to you in order to realize some things.

Loosig my dad was the hardest thing that happened to me and I have times that I can't help but crying because I miss him too much. But look at me after four years. I am still standing and looking forward. So why let other things break me, allow them to hurt me and make me cry when those things aren't even the worst things that had happened to me.

Thank you, Josh Groban for your amazing concert in A'dam.